Then Sings My Soul...

Pretty funny.

It’s kinda silly to take time out of the day to post on my blog that I haven’t looked at or checked in a really long time. In fact, I think the last post I had was a GIF of Gabourey Sidibe stealing chicken in the movie Precious: based on the novel Push by Sapphire. It was, and still is hilarious.

I was reading a book about God’s love for us, and then realized I am full of contradictions. I love, but I also hate. I say good things, and I say bad things. I can trust things, but also have suspicions. I seem confident, but I am also insecure. I can be open, but I also can close myself off just as easy. I have issues, but things just seem to fall into place for me.

Simple to think that God’s love is forever. But its difficult for me to comprehend that God’s love never changes, alters, even though I am a messy, messy person.

The tenderness and reliability of God’s love is beyond me.

But I can be thankful for it.

ambiguous.

It sucked when I realized I probably made a really bad long-term decision. But I’m glad I got my job and South County to counter that. God still blesses. WHAT UP?

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good reminder.

“From now on, every time I think about a relationship, I want to ask myself, “Do I love this person because I desire them, or because I desire good for them?” If I discover the former, it will probably turn into a nasty affair in which I am always jealous, never satisfied, and perpetually hurtful and vengeful, whereas if it’s the latter, even if they don’t return my love, I should at least be comforted that there is the possibility of their future happiness apart from me.”

I always think about this quote when I start thinking about how God blessed me with some great friends. Lately,God has been putting some great people in my life. I am so glad for it. But I also want to remember to always be praying and desiring good for them. I’ve learned so much from recent broken friendships, and I believe that remembering those words will keep my current friendships in tact. 

God is good. And gave me another year of life. Thanks.

Jealous.

From Brennan Manning:
“The wild, unrestricted love of God is not simply an inspiring idea. When it imposes itself on mind and heart with the stark reality of ontological truth, it determines why and at what time you get up in the morning, how you pass your evenings, how you spend your weekends, what you read, and who you hang with; it affects what breaks your heart, what amazes you, and what makes your heart happy.”
  
Later Manning states, “if we continue to view ourselves as moral lepers and spiritual failures, if our lives are shadowed by low self-esteem, shame, remorse, unhealthy guilt, and self-hatred, we reject the teaching of Jesus and cling to our negative self-image.”